Looking Like A Hooker...

You know what really grinds my gears?

Girls who dress like this when they go to class.

Who are they trying to impress? The professor? All the boys who are on Facebook? Ridiculous!
The only thing I think of when I see a girl dressed like this is that she really wants it, you know? This person is not looking for a relationship, does not have any self-esteem or self-worth. This person does not value herself.

Let me tell you something honey... you're not going to attract anything good with that getup. You have to love yourself before someone else can love you.

WM

Moving Along

I have been single for about 2 months, maybe. It is fantastic. I've been on two crappy dates so far. One was with a boy who didn't like me because I smoked. The other was with some lame dude who doesn't understand that he's not funny. They were both younger than me. I need an older man who has everything figured out, who is on the road to success. I keep looking for love, but its in all the wrong places. Hell, I'm not even looking for love. Its more like a male friend who just adores me. He should buy me lots of pretty things and take me to exotic places. I want a man who will actually try to court me, not one who takes me on one date and then we're official.

There's men, but women are just as bad. Girls are saying that I can't like this guy because he's not good for me. Then one of my friends tells me she called dibs on one guy. I tell her I will back off, but she tells me to go ahead. I know she's mad. Ugh. Why can't life be simple? No drama?

Oh well. Life goes on. At least I have friends who really truly care about me. I was blinded before. He made me think that everyone was out to get me. People thought I was paranoid, and e was the reason. Now, I'm happy. I am happy without a man in my life.

So, that was my lesson to learn. I thought. Now, give me a man dammit!

OMGWTF!!

So, I just read some of my old bullshit blogs. He was going to marry me. He is my everything. I don't know what I'd do without him. I belong with him.
NO!
Apparently, all of that was just imaginary. We broke up like 2 months ago, maybe, and he already has a girlfriend. WTF?! I must have meant absolutely nothing. Oh yeah... we broke up because he cheated and lied constantly... so I'm right. I was a great big nothing in his life. There are so many curse words I could scream right now. but I'm in a library full of students. I don't need to decrease my chances of finding a potential mate.

Oh well. Screw him. I'm single, on the prowl, looking for my next victim. Don't be scared; I just need a rebound. I just need to break a few hearts before I can feel better about men.

Ok. I was totally looking for a man before he got a gf, but its not like it makes me feel better. The man I found was a virgin, unwilling to unbuckle his tight as hell chastity belt. I know.. right?!

Whatever, I'm just riding solo now, waiting for him to trip and fall in front of me while I'm walking to class so I can laugh my ass off. Men suck! They just suck you into a tangled web of lies and let you hang there for a while, buttering you up. You believe them even when you don't. My heart believed him but my gut was screaming at me.

People tend to think I'm cold and heartless, but I'm really not. My heart is very loud and huge and ready to put love out there. But now... its broken and bleeding, bruised from a beating. I don't quite know if it can go through something like that again.

I'm just really upset that I wrote all that bullshit. That was exactly what it was: bullshit. I meant everything I said. I did want to marry the bastard. I did want to give him a second chance, but not a third, fourth, and fifth.

Yeah, I took him back after he cheated. I'll fess up. It was stupid, but I learned from it. I can't forget that kind of stuff (cheating) and just move on with life. I'll know better next time. I have no regrets.

With love (since I have so much now),

WM