OMGWTF!!

So, I just read some of my old bullshit blogs. He was going to marry me. He is my everything. I don't know what I'd do without him. I belong with him.
NO!
Apparently, all of that was just imaginary. We broke up like 2 months ago, maybe, and he already has a girlfriend. WTF?! I must have meant absolutely nothing. Oh yeah... we broke up because he cheated and lied constantly... so I'm right. I was a great big nothing in his life. There are so many curse words I could scream right now. but I'm in a library full of students. I don't need to decrease my chances of finding a potential mate.

Oh well. Screw him. I'm single, on the prowl, looking for my next victim. Don't be scared; I just need a rebound. I just need to break a few hearts before I can feel better about men.

Ok. I was totally looking for a man before he got a gf, but its not like it makes me feel better. The man I found was a virgin, unwilling to unbuckle his tight as hell chastity belt. I know.. right?!

Whatever, I'm just riding solo now, waiting for him to trip and fall in front of me while I'm walking to class so I can laugh my ass off. Men suck! They just suck you into a tangled web of lies and let you hang there for a while, buttering you up. You believe them even when you don't. My heart believed him but my gut was screaming at me.

People tend to think I'm cold and heartless, but I'm really not. My heart is very loud and huge and ready to put love out there. But now... its broken and bleeding, bruised from a beating. I don't quite know if it can go through something like that again.

I'm just really upset that I wrote all that bullshit. That was exactly what it was: bullshit. I meant everything I said. I did want to marry the bastard. I did want to give him a second chance, but not a third, fourth, and fifth.

Yeah, I took him back after he cheated. I'll fess up. It was stupid, but I learned from it. I can't forget that kind of stuff (cheating) and just move on with life. I'll know better next time. I have no regrets.

With love (since I have so much now),

WM